A shift in consciousness
For the last few years now my life has been changing and I couldn't really figure out how or why it was changing. Until a few days ago, I have had a massive shift in my consciousness and I put it down to my thinking.
For years, since I was about 19 or so I have read a thousand books on self development, I have listened to a hundred tapes on self development, and I have attended a few seminars on self development. Some of them worked for a while and some of them didn't, I have sometimes been fortunate there have been times when I have been unfortunate.
The reality shift came when I questioned my life, questioned my beliefs, and questioned my existence and a few days ago some questions were answered.
Bear with me here as this is going to be long but I believe it will be worth it.
I have been trying to figure out why we dream and a few years ago I asked myself the question I am in a dream just now. I constantly asked the question "˜am I in a dream just now'.
There were some reality shifts at the time and I started looking at the world in a different way, I looked at buildings with a sense of awe, I marvelled at the way things worked instead of taking everything for granted. Eventually I asked the question well if this is a dream "˜so what!' I can no more control the dream than I control my real life.
Then I started having lucid dreams, see my eight articles on Lucid dreaming, and suddenly the whole question of me controlling my life, or supposed dream, took on a whole new perspective. I could control my dreams to a certain degree therefore it begged the question could I control what happens in my life.
Life is a dream
Well, if I come from the perspective that my life is a dream I should be able to control that. However in order to really believe that my life was a dream I would have to wake up from my present perspective in order to do that. How the hell would I do that? I was going further and further down the rabbit hole.
In my lucid dreams if I wanted to fly, I would think "˜fly' and it would happen, if I wanted someone with me I would think of them and they would be with me. Now could I do this in my "˜real life'? So I went about trying it"¦.'I want one million pounds"¦I want the perfect woman in my life"¦"¦"¦.I want a family"¦"¦"¦etc. Did it work? Did it hell and the reason for this was because I was trying to put a new belief system on top of, what was my, current belief system.
My belief system at the time was that: the world happened to me, everything in my world happened by chance. It was unlucky that I went bankrupt; it was unlucky that I lost a lot of money; I was unlucky to have not found my true love. Now I believe that I create the world around me. I am the controller of this dream I am having. I create the people in it, I create the amount of money I have, I create my relationships, and I create everything. For me it is a belief that I found difficult to install, at first, but I am getting there.
Since I started installing the belief a few years ago wonderful things have happened to me, I've discussed them before in previous posts: my wife, my kids, my career, my everything has changed for the better.
Well, a few days ago something inside me clicked into place. I believe the software of my new belief has been fully installed and ready to use and it is amazing. Before this I used to say to myself I more or less believe in the power of positive thought and the power of intention etc but now it's shifted a great deal to "˜I know this is real and I know it works'. I don't know why it has clicked into place just now I just know it has and I am going to start to experiment big time with it.
The last few days
The last few days I have asking myself why I created the cars that are on the road, why I created the people around me, why the people in my life were in my life. Now, I am not talking that I am literally God I am talking on another level, I didn't really create the cars or the people but I did manifest them and their manifestations have matched up with mine to be in the same place at the same time.
I have literally jumped onto another level of consciousness without knowing how I did it except to change my beliefs about things. I still see the world with the same eyes but I see the world differently, I still hear the same things. As it is such a new experience I am just getting used to the feeling just now and the rush that has taken over, there's an energy inside me that is burning and I am trying to make sense of it all.
I have had similar shifts in consciousness when I was younger and there is one thing in common and that is intentions. I intended to change at some point, I intended to have lucid dreams, and I intended to manifest more money in my life. The difference this time is that it is not a fleeting shifting consciousness it is a lasting one. This shift is also, at the moment, not discernable to the people around me, colleagues and family.
I am frightened just now to start using this power as I know it is so powerful so I am going to take a few days to calm down and think about what I want in my life and start the manifestations.
I really hope this all doesn't sound too absurd and I hope I have explained it well enough for you to understand. I am just typing furiously just now. I think I have written about 1000 words in the space of 20 minutes.
I will write more on this when my brain has had time to absorb the information and the new energy it has.