Reason, Season or Lifetime

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Life is an interesting struggle sometimes. We were born perfect, yet we're constantly trying to grow and improve. It sounds like a contradiction, yet somehow it's not. We're the only creatures on the planet that deal with this, that spend anytime looking inward.

I sometimes envy my dog because of this. Every day is a clean slate for her.   She starts each day with the same excitement and happiness as she did two years ago. Every time I come home, she greets me with a sort of pure joy and love that I sometimes have a hard time understanding.

reason_season_or_lifetimeI wish that I could live one day like that, just to know how it feels. One day where all I feel is love and joy for every little thing that happens. Always in the moment.   Incapable of negativity or judgment.

So I'm trying to grow. I'm trying to get close to that point where the love that is inside me can flow freely and effortlessly. Where I can open myself up to those close to me without fear of judgment or betrayal. I realized recently that, in my last relationship, I wasn't as open as I thought I was. I thought I was communicating and telling her what I needed. Yet, after more then 7 months apart, I'm just realizing I wasn't at all. I was withholding information and feelings from her and that was preventing our relationship from progressing. I was preventing her from being her best.

Which Brings Me To My Point

I've always believed that, as individuals, we are doing the best that we can at any given moment. We may not be right and we may make mistakes. But at that moment, we are doing the best that we can.

I made mistakes in that relationship. I dealt with frustration and problems very poorly at times. But at that moment, I was doing the best that I could.

At the same time, I would have done better if I knew how. I think most people would agree with that. Wouldn't you?

How Do I Learn How To Better?

I've handled many things poorly but it was the best I could do at that moment. If I knew how to handle it better, I would have!   But when do I learn to handle it better? Well, afterwards, of course. After the dust has settled and I've had time to reflect and see how it affected the people involved. Then it becomes clear to me what has happened.

And truthfully, this has been haunting me lately. That sentence "˜I would have done better if I knew how'. Am I going to spend the rest of my life living by that saying? There must be a way to "˜know how to do better' before I actually act.

When I reflect on myself and my actions, it slowly comes into focus where I can do better. I understand my flaws, my old wounds that keep surfacing. And while I can understand where I need to change and grow, I can't seem to do it. It's like a switch that I just can't turn off. It's dark and I can't see "“ but I can't turn the light on.

It turns out that relationships exist to foster growth. I grew up with this notion that I'd meet a girl, we'd fall in love, agree on everything, and live happily ever after. I grew up with the notion that arguing was bad. Fighting was bad.

But it turns out that not arguing or fighting means you're holding everything in.   And truthfully, you're kidding yourself when you think you're holding in emotions.   It just manifests itself somewhere else. You either end up poisoning the relationship or poisoning your health. So those emotions need to be let out and brought to the surface. They need to be dealt with before they become an issue.

A relationship has a way of doing that. Of targeting the parts of you that need to grow and heal. That's what the frustration is, and the anger and hurt. They're signposts of what you need to deal with. And a great relationship will see both people working together to help each other grow towards their potential.

But I think another misconception I had growing up was that "˜relationship' also meant "˜permanent'.   So I take the loss of a wonderful, perfect woman pretty hard.   I see her moving and drifting away and it hurts quite a bit. It hurts a lot.

What Defines Success Here?

I was reading the other day that if a relationship served to help you grow and heal, then that relationship was a success. Don't judge a relationship by how long it lasted but by how much you grew from it. And from the past relationship, I learned a lot and I grew. And I learned what it means to "˜heal'. What I learned about myself will keep my busy trying to do better for a long time to come. I learned what pure love is from her. I saw what spiritual perfection is. And I learned that I'm the same, that I have that same capability.

But it still hurts. I still haven't learned how to accept relationships as fleeting. I've heard the saying that people come into your life for a reason, a season, or a lifetime.   And I suppose I erred in assuming that this season was going to last longer. My own expectations did me in!

If you have a similar story or advice, I'd love to hear from you. I know this post was a little different from the way I usually write but I think sometimes just sharing the story has it's own benefits. It's own way of reaching out to people.

To Your Success,

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About the author

Adel Refai

Adel ("˜Oddle') has spent years as an online marketer and marketing coach. He realized very quickly that mindset, attitude and approach to life and business were always part of success. How you go about achieving your goals "“ your successes "“ are just as important as what you want to achieve.

Everybody needs help and guidance. He feels it's part of his mission to offer that guidance.

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